will always wonder

i will always wonder what love is.
i am sure as yet i haven't figured out what love is all about.
does it just remain a mystery if you are too dumb to understand this is what love is all about...
well, i will always wonder if i can be so dumb in emotional intelligence.

so much effort

sometimes i wonder why i put in so much effort to make friends, and then all of a sudden realise that the so-called friends don't trust me at all.
It hurts like hell; why don't i learn not to put emotinal effort in any more relationships, why do i just not stick to books?

Must do just so!